Occupy space

I was searching for a reason to blog. I was searching for any reason whatsoever to start a silly little blog to dedicate a lot of my energy (The one I'm not using for academics 24/7, that is) to in 2026. And a short on YouTube simply Said "Go start blogging on blogger now!" while showing the many blogs their followers had already create back in 2025, encouraged by her videos. And I did. I downloaded the app with mild curiosity - and then realized, I have no fanbase here. I have no followers and no connections whatsoever. Whatever I write, May It be as poetic as Sappho's and Shakespeare's texts or deeply thoughtful Like those of Aristotle's or even important Like Immanuel Kant's - It might go to "waste". Though I believe that no words, even if whispered into the void, go unheard. The Wind howls and mouths them back to us. 

Still, whatever shall I talk about, If no crowd is listening? 

Whatever I please. This, from now One, is One of the many space I occupy. I occupy an incredibly minuscule fragment of blogger and I am glad to be here.

In the early stages of my life, I've tried to occupy as little space as possible and tried to wholly lose myself in media as to find myself in them once outside of those space. Countless videogames and anime and cartoons, a million books and each shade of colour I could somehow create through my pencils. And I gave all of the characters in my story all of the space I wouldn't dare occupy. I was them and they were me in ways only I could understand.

Where did I find my first True place? On minecraft as a six year old Child, playing with so many people, making friendships that Would shape me and inevitably gift me values I Would take throughout my life. Loyalty to my friends and to my dogs in my survival worlds. Integrity and determinativo. Curiosity and the experience that I was like able to the Point of my first best friend searching for me for about 3. My first best friend was Claudia, who, under the username KansKitty, showed me what friendship should look Like and protected me from mobs and mean players Who decided burning down the world of a 9 year old was fun. And my username? TehloveMaria1234.

Italian children don't know how to properly spell in English, mind you. But I Marked myself very clearly. This username was taken and Would stay taken forever. 

My Second True community was wattpad. (@TheloveMaria_17, to this day. This time, with better spelling.) There, I developed. I found out Who I was, who I am. I discovered each part of me, those I didn't even know existed. I found out that I loved writing. I adored pouring my soul in everything i write and eventually arrived where I am today. I write and I love to write and I still draw and I game and I read and I do so much. And I occupy space. On all apps, I have the same username and some variations of It as well. And in real life, I take up space.

 I Speak up and I do for those Who can't. I accept myself in a way so raw - I hate myself but I stand up for all That I stand for. I dislike my body but I advocate for body positivity and against eating disorders. I love being queer and I protect each member of the community of I am able to. I am so mentally ill but I have survived and I will do so for a long, long time. I will live and so will you. You will survive, live and prosper and You will smile when the sun warms your skin and doesn't scorn you.  And I will take up space even after my Death. I shall Rest, somewhere pretty, Perhaps 'neath a willow tree and I will have a tombstone and I will have countless posts and pieces of writing and art and so many game file saves and a thousand words will I have left behind. I will have left something and it Won't be the memory of how I was oh so quiet and oh so digestible. I will die with people hating me and I smile At the thought. Take up space, Make space, stand up for yourself and grin when people tell you they hate you. 9 times out of 10, it's Because you're doing something right.

So, what will you find on this blog? Anything and everything. Just stay for the ride and buckle your seatbelts, Because fuck if I know what I'm going to write about. I just know I'm going to enjoy It.